I think Apple hit 5k sometime before or after the game, and I want to do a meme too. SO ASK ME QUESTIONS AND I WILL GET TO THEM AT SOME POINT TODAY. I play Apple/Shirayukiand some dude in the queue.
It really brings up old fears that he hadn't thought about in a very, very long time! For a while, there was this trauma streak for him that involved a) running into a huge snake demon with dead bodies around b) running into a room with rotting body parts with a smell that was enough to make you vomit and c) watching Hound be crushed from the inside out 8D This resulted in him not really being able to connect with the memories that he had been getting and having trouble with Dragonfly = Hikaru. It just felt like he could not go back to his Hikaru life which was filled with ridic and lols. Then he had a heart game and that was all magically fixed! The memories of the trauma were still there but they didn't have such a huge effect on him anymore because the others had built coping mechanisms for those events.
BUT NOW THEY ARE HAPPENING ALL OVER AGAIN. With Green Knight's threatening game, Kit's yandere, and now HIS FAVORITE PEOPLE BEING CRUSHED TO DEATH, those fears are resurfacing and are breaking those coping mechs that he had. He's actually trying to be "Hikaru" as a way to deal with the things happening which is slightly opposite of what he did before. HIKARU WAS A NICE LIFE, I ENJOYED HIKARU LIFE THAT WAS FILLED WITH NOT DEATH LETS USE IT AS A DISTRACTION. He isn't denying that these things happened, but he is trying very hard not to think about them.
I do expect that he will be a lot more nervous about games (at least on the inside) and that if the next trauma games involve Coral death -- yeaaaaaah. \o/
She's actually indifferent to it right now! Initially her memories were very heavily focused on her red hair drawing attention to her and being a BAD THING, so she didn't like it. She even had Mau sew hoods onto her outfits so that she could cover her hair! But as time went on, she calmed down over it a bit. People in Aather didn't seem to take it as a bad thing--when they mentioned it, they'd always say it was pretty. And her memories after that didn't show anyone giving it any special attention beyond...uh, getting kidnapped for it a few times. And she figures she's already been kidnapped by the Personae and no one has a reason to kidnap her here, so disliking her hair was a waste of energy. Sometimes she gets a bit ruffled when people mention it; she got REALLY UPSET when Church first arrived and dropped cuss words left and right about it. :'D She was actually starting to really like her hair before that so GOOD JOB EFF. But she won't actively hide it or feel overly embarrassed about it like she used to.
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Date: 2012-05-12 05:38 pm (UTC)BUT NOW THEY ARE HAPPENING ALL OVER AGAIN. With Green Knight's threatening game, Kit's yandere, and now HIS FAVORITE PEOPLE BEING CRUSHED TO DEATH, those fears are resurfacing and are breaking those coping mechs that he had. He's actually trying to be "Hikaru" as a way to deal with the things happening which is slightly opposite of what he did before. HIKARU WAS A NICE LIFE, I ENJOYED HIKARU LIFE THAT WAS FILLED WITH NOT DEATH LETS USE IT AS A DISTRACTION. He isn't denying that these things happened, but he is trying very hard not to think about them.
I do expect that he will be a lot more nervous about games (at least on the inside) and that if the next trauma games involve Coral death -- yeaaaaaah. \o/
Apple and her feelings on red hair? '3'
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Date: 2012-05-13 07:23 am (UTC)JET'S SOTU WITH HER TEAM.