Question Meme!

[appleofhiseye]

I think Apple hit 5k sometime before or after the game, and I want to do a meme too. SO ASK ME QUESTIONS AND I WILL GET TO THEM AT SOME POINT TODAY. I play Apple/Shirayuki and some dude in the queue. 

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[pitching]

GENERAL RELATIONSHIPS?!

[yourmama]

Impressions? :3c

[doesnothappen]

How's Apple doing right now, after that game?

[blackjacked]

... who do you have in the queue :O! AND HOW EXCITED ARE YOU FOR THEM?

[appleofhiseye]

RELATIONSHIPS ARE HARD THE END. no okay i can do this and we will see how coherent it is.

Dragonfly -> Apple loev Coral super a lot! And Dragonfly is one of the people she talks to on a fairly regular basis and it always makes her smile '-' It's simple and easy and she feels like she can tell him some things, but she also sees him as a bit fragile so she won't talk to him unless it's something specifically related to his team. Dragonfly is just someone she can go to for fun and not having to worry about stupid games or stupid personae and she reallyyyyy likes that.

Jet -> PRETTY COOL LADY, Apple is just somehow super pinged by Jet's attitude and feels like they really click on some empathy level, I dunno. Really wants to get to know her better and help her team, because despite Eff's first horrible impression she likes them as a whole and wants to make them feel comfortable. She also feels personally responsible for the new teams being there, so there's a lot of guilt wrapped up in her desire to get to know Jet. :'D HOPEFULLY THAT WILL FADE WITH TIME but it makes her super protective of them because if we'd been able to fight the Darkness better they wouldn't have to be here!! So. Yes.

I think I just asked for relationships in your last meme so TELL ME HOW FASHIONABLE DRAGONFLY IS GOING TO MAKE AATHER. Or at least Coral.

[pitching]

YEAH I GENERALLY HAVE TROUBLE WITH THEM TOO.

Apparently, Dragonfly is a tool for quests now so I GUESS IT IS GETTING THERE. SLOWLY. SURELY. He already has a quest to redesign one team's outfit and another to give designs to Coral. '-' It's on pause because of trauma but IT WILL RESUME EVENTUALLY. ALso someone on Amethyst is gonna ask him for quest help too.

So what do you think Apple's approach to trauma games will be like from here on out?

[glorious]

...Mau stole my question. So I guess uh, how you feeling about Selenia, Apple?

[appleofhiseye]

Pretty much that Viola is adorable. SHE IS A KNIGHT AND CAN DO COOL THINGS but she is also a kid and has a very straightforward mentality that's endearing. Apple enjoys being able to talk to her and potentially explain things to her, just because she finds those kinds of conversations super interesting. Just a nice person to interact with, sometimes surprising but always engaging. Beyond that she really hopes Viola learns to read because READING IS COOL. '^' Practice practice practice.

REVERSE?

[scalesfromeyes]

Apple confuses Viola a lot-- she thinks Apple is a nice person, but they have very different ways of approaching the world, and so Viola ends up going "????" a lot. I think in some ways Apple highlights the issues that Viola has with interpersonal interactions, because Apple seems to be a very normal girl in many respects-- not obviously raised in nobility, not obviously from a very different world-- and those are the relationships that Viola has the most problems with. She wants to be a normal girl and be able to have normal conversations, but she's so bad at actually being one unless her comparison point is… well, let's be honest, people like Onyx. There's a reason her best makeup-and-pretty-clothes buddy was Riful! So she fumbles the conversation a lot and gets unhappy with her inability to grasp how Apple's talking about things sometimes, but it's not so grating that she can pinpoint why. So there's usually a lot going on that she's not saying in Apple threads as opposed to other threads where she doesn't tend to hide very much. :3c

How does Apple get along with Sapphire?

[appleofhiseye]

Reaaaaally badly. SHE WILL NEVER SHOW IT, she's kind of still in shock? And blocking a lot of it out by focusing on making sure everyone else is okay. She also just picked up three quests to do in order to avoid having to actually deal with it. Avoidance avoidance avoidance~ Her tiny bit of consolation was that THEY SAVED A TEAM FROM THAT FATE and her people are (mostly) safe. Outside of Sapphire and Hunter who got squished. But they knew what they were doing, and even if she was holding out hope that it wouldn't be as bad, she figured putting 8 stones on themselves was as good as a death sentence from everyone's reactions to Jabberwock. So she was a little mentally prepared for it! Just. Not enough. But she'll be damned if she breaks down in front of anyone so she's holding on to everything until like a week from now when she can find a nice alone place to cry forever.

She is also being very passive-aggressive with Amethyst to make them stop being...emothyst over the game. :T GUYS IT WAS THE STUPID PERSONAE NOT YOU.

How did Apollo take his team doing...what they did? :'D

[appleofhiseye]

SOME DUDE

It's Haruki Koutake from Di[e]ce and I am equal amounts excited and absolutely terrified. '-' Or. Mostly terrified.

DO YOU HAVE ANY APP PLANS?

[appleofhiseye]

This is an equally good question because she has been on an emotional roller coaster with Selenia the past few days. FIRST HE WAS DUMB and took the quest and it really upset her even though she didn't know exactly what was wrong until Mau told her. He was acting a bit off and not really smiling and it felt like something was broken. ;; And even though he apologized and she put up her notes as her passive-aggressive way of saying ":) don't be a dumbass Selenia :)" she was still pretty upset with him going into the game.

AND THEN THE GAME HAPPENED. He pushed the black stones away when she didn't want to use them, quested for ice cream liked she'd talked about, and talked with her up until they got squished. Any lingering grudge she had over it was basically taken over by TRAUMA so...I guess it did something good there? \o/

Selenia how do you feel about Apple right nowww

[appleofhiseye]

Apple's going to ask him to make ~costumes~ at some point too because we are going to have a fun play after all this trauma damnit. :x

I really have no idea! She's currently blocking it out hard and noooot thinking about it, focusing on other things. She's glad they were able to save another team from the same fate, especially since she gets the feeling that team would have been Amethyst, but dying messed her up very badly. She really won't want to do it again, but at the same time she knows people on almost every single team and would not want them having to deal with it either. Team Discussion is happening too so her attitude might change depending on that! Honestly though I just see her forcibly dragging everyone away from the ring the next time she sees Jabberwock. "NOPE NOT PLAYING YOUR GAME EVERYONE BACK TO THE CABINS knight guys make sure he doesn't go on a rampage and kill us plz k thx." BOYCOTT \o/

How much was Dragonfly affected by seeing the results of death games? Alternatively tell me Jet's feels too. '-'

[blackjacked]

SO FAR JUST A REAPP since I dropped Mitsuru for a bit. If I'm not feeling her I might app someone else come June, but she is getting reapped either way! I also want to app Edward Elric but I need to finish FMA first. orz.

Is Apple's death going to make her approach trauma games differently in the future?

[appleofhiseye]

Pretty good! Apple loves her teammmmm so much. She was initially indifferent to the idea of a team, but then clicked with them hard during Red's Heart Game. Teamdere ever since. She doesn't talk to Sayaka and Breath as much, and she'll disagree with all of them from time to time, but overall she has a very strong affection for them. She talks to them all as often as she can and likes being around them. They fill her with FEELINGS.

Does Rabbit have feelings over the game?

[appleofhiseye]

Yessss app Edward Elric.

...also that's so cute, you guys ask practically the same question.

YOU ARE FREE TO CHOOSE AN ALTERNATIVE QUESTION or you can tell me about why Kit approached the game the way he did.

[blackjacked]

-- OOPS :'D

Kit approached the game with the number one priority of protecting Coral as much as possible! Coral was first, so he needed to think about Coral first-- which meant that they weren't allowed to play any of their stones on themselves. Second priority was ensuring that the damage Coral distributed didn't kill any teams, which is why he suggested the "one attack stone on each team, the teams that we play double attack on definitely get defense stones, and the rest of our defense stones go on teams we want to protect." Black stones weeeeere an option since protecting Coral was his first priority but it was not a desired one and therefore not brought up until very late in the game, And Kit reeeeeeally didn't want to use those black stones, so when no one else wanted to use them, he was relieved!

With all of those goals in mind-- i.e. protect Coral, minimize damage, try not to kill any teams-- he approached the game logically, levelheadedly, and evenhandedly. IT WAS SURPRISING FOR ME HONESTLY, but he's come a long way from arguing for self-sacrifice in trauma games and was as efficient and detached about it as possible to avoid too much mental anguish over the decision.

He should have asked how many stones it would take to kill a team, sob, since the answer had the chance of changing his strategy (had he known 10 stones would result in death he would have done something different since if every team played one attack stone on every team, everyone would have died). BUT OH WELL, I was pleased with his logical levelheadedness anyway!

Fallout was what made him feel hella guilty and awful, not the actual decision process, it's great :')

TELL ME HOW GAME AFFECTED APPLE'S FEELS FOR SAPPHIRE.

[glorious]

Apple had earned some respect for the notes but she's earned far more respect after the trauma game. They came up with a plan, considered the risks and took a course of action, planning around potential what ifs as needed. They were decisive and did not sway from their moral code as a team. Selenia was proud to see Apple's contributions with the team. And talking with her after the fact made the wait seem that much easier.

...And after they all died and arisen again, he was struck by how well she handled what happened. Though they were all shaken, he appreciated how Apple was able to get up and walk home. After that game, he would classify Apple as one their strongest teammates now. (Possibly even stronger than him, since the method of death shook him up more than he anticipated.)

SELENIA IS PROUD TO HAVE DIED ALONGSIDE YOU, APPLE.

What's Apple's favorite ice cream flavor?

[pitching]

I'm cuter.

[appleofhiseye]

You're both very pretty

[appleofhiseye]

SAPPHIRE ;; It was a horrible situation and they faced it head-on, as bravely as they could. The teammates who weren't there have done nothing but support them and help them recover. She just admires them and respects them all so much for. Everything they did. Words cannot contain all the feelings. SAPPHIRE IS THE BEST FOREVER NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO TALK BAD ABOUT THEM. ALSO HUNTER. Hunter is now Sapphire too, he runs into traffic with us.

Basically the game made her super protective of Sapphire, super proud of them, and if anyone badtalks anyone on her team she might TAKE A BOTTLE TO THEIR HEAD. :|

Questions are hardddd. Uhm. KIT'S IDEAL DATE WITH A PRETTY LADY. What does he do where does he take her, etc.

[appleofhiseye]

If she tried ALL THE FLAVORS it would probably be coffee ice cream. But right now it's chocolate.

HAVE I EVER ASKED YOU WHY YOU LIKE PLAYING VAN GRANTS you should tell me what pings you in him.

[screwthatnoise]

FIRST IMPRESSIONS?!

[pitching]

It really brings up old fears that he hadn't thought about in a very, very long time! For a while, there was this trauma streak for him that involved a) running into a huge snake demon with dead bodies around b) running into a room with rotting body parts with a smell that was enough to make you vomit and c) watching Hound be crushed from the inside out 8D This resulted in him not really being able to connect with the memories that he had been getting and having trouble with Dragonfly = Hikaru. It just felt like he could not go back to his Hikaru life which was filled with ridic and lols. Then he had a heart game and that was all magically fixed! The memories of the trauma were still there but they didn't have such a huge effect on him anymore because the others had built coping mechanisms for those events.

BUT NOW THEY ARE HAPPENING ALL OVER AGAIN. With Green Knight's threatening game, Kit's yandere, and now HIS FAVORITE PEOPLE BEING CRUSHED TO DEATH, those fears are resurfacing and are breaking those coping mechs that he had. He's actually trying to be "Hikaru" as a way to deal with the things happening which is slightly opposite of what he did before. HIKARU WAS A NICE LIFE, I ENJOYED HIKARU LIFE THAT WAS FILLED WITH NOT DEATH LETS USE IT AS A DISTRACTION. He isn't denying that these things happened, but he is trying very hard not to think about them.

I do expect that he will be a lot more nervous about games (at least on the inside) and that if the next trauma games involve Coral death -- yeaaaaaah. \o/

Apple and her feelings on red hair? '3'

[appleofhiseye]

Haha ECHO IS BAFFLING most of the time. Apple can't understand her way of thinking. But that's one of the reasons she likes talking to her; because Apple feels like her own world view is limited to what she's seen in Aather and the memories she's gotten, she doesn't understand a lot of things and wants the opportunity to interact with as many people as possible, especially people she doesn't fully understand. She does actually like Echo! She thinks Echo is cute in her own way, and whatever bluntness Echo presents comes off as honesty to Apple, which is a trait she likes.

REVERSE?

[appleofhiseye]

She's actually indifferent to it right now! Initially her memories were very heavily focused on her red hair drawing attention to her and being a BAD THING, so she didn't like it. She even had Mau sew hoods onto her outfits so that she could cover her hair! But as time went on, she calmed down over it a bit. People in Aather didn't seem to take it as a bad thing--when they mentioned it, they'd always say it was pretty. And her memories after that didn't show anyone giving it any special attention beyond...uh, getting kidnapped for it a few times. And she figures she's already been kidnapped by the Personae and no one has a reason to kidnap her here, so disliking her hair was a waste of energy. Sometimes she gets a bit ruffled when people mention it; she got REALLY UPSET when Church first arrived and dropped cuss words left and right about it. :'D She was actually starting to really like her hair before that so GOOD JOB EFF. But she won't actively hide it or feel overly embarrassed about it like she used to.

JET'S SOTU WITH HER TEAM.

[doesnothappen]

Apollo has taken it VERY BADLY, although it is not so much... his team... as Tsuruume and Effie. He had a bit of a screaming match with Effie in the unlock, and hasn't interacted with Tsuruume since then at all. I think at this point he feels like the only sane adult on the team, and also really ineffectual, and also sort of guilty because although of course it's horrible that they murdered Ruby, a huge part of why he's upset is that Marine and Ran got dragged into it.

Anyway he has no idea what to do now, he's just confused and repressing.

How does Apple feel about Mau? >.>

[screwthatnoise]

When Echo heard about Aaple APPLE, from Selenia, Echo assumed what to expect—a mature, responsible person... which, is what Apple is! Echo is cool with people like that. She doesn't mind small talk with her because she's patient and listens! Apple also seems normal and at peace/content, and that intrigues Echo, too. What a simple person (in the most respectful way). '-'

On the other hand, Apple baffles her, too! She tried to 'twist around' Echo's story! Her stories tend to either be a) mundane and simple, reflecting the boring life Echo is intrigued by, b) weird shit that doesn't make sense because that is what Echo assumes is a good story make, and c) UNHAPPY OR TWISTED ENDINGS, because Echo thinks it is realistic (in its own sense, as not everyone will get be happy) and because she's a little bitter she can't have her own happy ending. So, yeah. Apple going "OH WHY DON'T YOU JUST MAKE IT FAIR AND HAVE THE BOY SHARE AND THEY BOTH CAN HAVE HAPPY ENDINGS" kind of insulted Echo!! It changed the magic of Echo's story, she thought, and she was a little surprised that Apple suggested such a thing! But Echo also took this into consideration because Echo knows that Sapphire is a good team, Selenia is a trustworthy (lolol) person, and that reflected on Aa—APPLE GD IT.

NTS never share another story with her again... just to make things EASY ON HERSELF.

SO, how does Apple feel on Sapphire in general?!

[appleofhiseye]

Mau is basically her favorite person in all of Aather (besides Obi, but he's Obi). :x Even though he's younger, he's mature and is able to make decisions not only based off of his personal opinions, but what he thinks is logical and right. He's also one of the "older" members of Sapphire (I don't think she knows he's been there the longest?) and has a general idea of things that happened to him at home, which basically all add up to RESPECT!! She thinks of Mau as Sapphire's secret leader and Red as the figurehead that everyone thinks of as the leader. Red has the energy to motivate people into action, whereas Mau has the good decision-making skills.

But he is still also a kid and has moments of not fully understanding things (but striving to understand) and does dumb things like not sleeping when he's supposed to!! So she can allow him to make decisions when it's something important, but for everyday things she will fuss if she thinks it's necessary, because that's something she can do for him! And just in general they get along really well; she's able to have fun with him, be encouraged and supported by him, encourage and support him in return, and stand by each other when they need it.

LOTS OF FEELINGS

HOW DOES MAU FEEL ABOUT APPLE...

[doesnothappen]

Mau really likes Apple. She's steady and practical and kind, and he feels supported by her on a lot of levels. One in that she doesn't just brush him off as a kid, and is willing to respect his words and actions for what they are instead of colouring them with his age. He also... mmm, he doesn't like that she will brush off her own pain and smile and carry on with things, exactly, but he appreciates it. He wishes she wouldn't, and it worries him, but at the same time he respects that it's a coping mechanism she seems to need, and he can understand it. Being fussed over and mothered a little is also great for him, although it's not like he'd admit it. While he's pretty good at taking care of other people, and getting better at taking care of himself, he definitely does better when he's taken care of a little. Even tiny amounts of nurturing give huge boosts to his stability. And he feels like even though she isn't very open with her troubles, he's able to be there for her in some ways, too... which makes him happy.

How does Apple's body language change with her emotional state? What's it like when she's genuinely happy? Does it change when she's faking? What's it like when she's scared or mad?

[appleofhiseye]

Haha, her body language is really subtle! (At least I think it is.) She's naturally a very closed person and doesn't do a lot of physical contact in canon; the majority of the time someone else initiates contact, rather than her. I think one of the big things, in Aather, is that she'll initiate contact on occasion, things like giving people hugs! Which she only initiates with Mau and Selenia, if I recall her past threads correctly. That's not really body language though, I got off topic.

I try to show her body language through her icons when I can. When she's happy or excited about something she tends to gesture with her hands or do big smiles. She'll do much the same when she's faking, except she'll tend to fold her hands together, speak less, and have more closed-mouth smiles. Most of the time she tries to keep her body language very neutral, and only changes it up with people she's comfortable with! So if she's mad at someone on Sapphire she'll scowl or frown, but if she's mad at someone on Citrine or another team she doesn't know as well the most she'll do is lineface :| if she even does that. The exception was when Selenia gave up his love and she was really pissed at him, she just stopped smiling at him and used very neutral/flat expressions. ...And when she started yelling at Eff when they first met, but SHE WAS REALLY OFFENDED OKAY. (That was a really atypical moment, since it was right after her being Darkness'd and new teams arriving and her feeling like it was her fault they had to be brought in, so she was short on patience.)

With fear, she tries to hide that from everyone; I think the only time she even freaked out and was downright terrified was when Selenia picked her up when she was Darkness'd, because she has serious issues with being kidnapped and that's what she interpreted was happening! And she started kicking him and hitting him. :'D Most of the time if she's scared or feels threatened she'll shut down, or clench her fists and avoid eye contact, or find some way to fight back. It depends on the situation! Like with the Jabberwock game, she was terrified, but channeled her energy into talking to the people with her and completely blocking out her fear, to the point that it didn't show in her body language at all. She's still pretty much doing that, but it's mentally taxing and eventually she'll have to deal with it, but NOT IN FRONT OF ANYBODY.

...Long explanation is long whoops.

What made you want to app Mau to Aather? Was there something that pinged you about his canon, his personality, his situation?