UHM gosh I'm too tired for this I will probably come back and add more on in the morning b-but she was actually relatively...okay with it? At the end, at least! No, not okay, what is the word. Tired. Yes. ICly she is very TIRED of heart games and she mentioned to Shark that she doesn't think they're necessary, and she doesn't! Red's heart and Judith's heart she didn't really seek to change anything; her goal in hearts is always to just find the person whose heart it is (she kind of instinctively seeks out the true heart, basically). And because she's aware her heart game messed her up and has seen hearts messing other people up, the very idea of them is distressing. Her changes are very tentative, and most of the time she just tries to ask the true heart for confirmation whether or not it's okay, or if she should go fix something. (Shark's heart pissed her off because she couldn't goddamn find Shark and when she was about to break the mirror to see if it would lead him to her, she hesitated and didn't. And by the time she got back Kazuki had reinforced it...tangentially :B) She's spent the last like...idk I think it's been 2 IC weeks, or 3? Dealing with hearts that got screwed up last time. So going into this one, and having it be Kit's heart, was terrifying. She knows he hates heart games and she...likes him the way he is, with all of his flaws! Even if it pisses her off sometimes, she doesn't want to go into people and change them.
So! When Kit's heart said "come and get me~" she was relieved, because she figured it would keep everyone in line searching for Kit and they wouldn't mess with anything. And that's her goal in hearts anyways, so it aligned with what she wanted to do! It was also...Kit, so on some level she had the idea that nothing would hurt her, because Kit wouldn't hurt her :|a THIS IS A MISPLACED IDEA SHE HAS ABOUT HEARTS and she knows it is because she knows people get hurt in hearts, but SHE has never gotten hurt in a heart so she lets herself keep believing in that. And her trust in Kit to not hurt her was what led her to nonchalantly bet her key in poker :') because it's something she needs to keep her safe from the Darkness so even if she lost it she had faith he'd give it back to her. BETTING MY THINGS AWAY IS SHOWING I TRUST YOU, KIT!!!
what am I talking about again ANYWAYS SHE HIT ALL THE SURFACE STUFF and then they found the Kit and she was pleased until it sunk in that not everyone was there and people had wandered off and shit what if they're touching things no. But when Kit kept being like I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO DOWN THERE :( she...would have stayed, at that last comment. She was already fretting over the purple paint because even though she was like NO THIS IS A GOOD THING Kira flipped out and she'd messed up by taking the book so she was very .-. maybe I will sit on my hands and do nothing now that I found Kit. BUT THEN he was like no you can go and well if Kit says she can go into the parts of his heart that he's scared of then maybe that means I don't screw things up and I will go drag everyone back up here '-'!!! If she had walked in on Shark and Canary in ANY OTHER ROOM where they were messing with stuff she might have let her anger get the better of her and bitched them out. For existing in Kit's basement ;A; Look sometimes there are things you put in the basement that no one is allowed to find and it is okay that means you are normal we live death games shhhhhh. But she didn't know what they'd done! So it's not like she could yell at them when she didn't know the whole situation. And what part of it had been them or Alena and no matter who it was she just knew things had been changed so she was freaking out because. Uhm change in a heart game means you turn out like Fire or Shark. ...And then she ended up helping tear down the helplessness because she touched it and :') hates that feeling :') that is a feeling that can go.
I really have no idea what the original question was OOPS but by the end it didn't seem like anything had been damaged and Kit kept saying he'd be okay. By the end of Shark's heart she KNEW something had gone wrong, but with Kit's she didn't feel like that. And he was...mm, tired but relaxed? By the end of it, so she figured he'd be okay. Having him start crying in endgame was...worrisome, yes, because she knows he hates crying in front of other people :( But she is tired of heart games so just, mm, emotionally drained from them, and she believes Kit will be okay as long as they repeatedly punch him in the feelings '-'b
i don't even know if this answers your question but i think i hit everything REVERSEDMANIT I CAN'T REVERSE THAT THIS QUESTION IS SILLY. Maybe you should tell me how Kit's dealing with it even though he's only been in like one post since his heart game
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So! When Kit's heart said "come and get me~" she was relieved, because she figured it would keep everyone in line searching for Kit and they wouldn't mess with anything. And that's her goal in hearts anyways, so it aligned with what she wanted to do! It was also...Kit, so on some level she had the idea that nothing would hurt her, because Kit wouldn't hurt her :|a THIS IS A MISPLACED IDEA SHE HAS ABOUT HEARTS and she knows it is because she knows people get hurt in hearts, but SHE has never gotten hurt in a heart so she lets herself keep believing in that. And her trust in Kit to not hurt her was what led her to nonchalantly bet her key in poker :') because it's something she needs to keep her safe from the Darkness so even if she lost it she had faith he'd give it back to her. BETTING MY THINGS AWAY IS SHOWING I TRUST YOU, KIT!!!
what am I talking about again ANYWAYS SHE HIT ALL THE SURFACE STUFF and then they found the Kit and she was pleased until it sunk in that not everyone was there and people had wandered off and shit what if they're touching things no. But when Kit kept being like I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO DOWN THERE :( she...would have stayed, at that last comment. She was already fretting over the purple paint because even though she was like NO THIS IS A GOOD THING Kira flipped out and she'd messed up by taking the book so she was very .-. maybe I will sit on my hands and do nothing now that I found Kit. BUT THEN he was like no you can go and well if Kit says she can go into the parts of his heart that he's scared of then maybe that means I don't screw things up and I will go drag everyone back up here '-'!!! If she had walked in on Shark and Canary in ANY OTHER ROOM where they were messing with stuff she might have let her anger get the better of her and bitched them out. For existing in Kit's basement ;A; Look sometimes there are things you put in the basement that no one is allowed to find and it is okay that means you are normal we live death games shhhhhh. But she didn't know what they'd done! So it's not like she could yell at them when she didn't know the whole situation. And what part of it had been them or Alena and no matter who it was she just knew things had been changed so she was freaking out because. Uhm change in a heart game means you turn out like Fire or Shark. ...And then she ended up helping tear down the helplessness because she touched it and :') hates that feeling :') that is a feeling that can go.
I really have no idea what the original question was OOPS but by the end it didn't seem like anything had been damaged and Kit kept saying he'd be okay. By the end of Shark's heart she KNEW something had gone wrong, but with Kit's she didn't feel like that. And he was...mm, tired but relaxed? By the end of it, so she figured he'd be okay. Having him start crying in endgame was...worrisome, yes, because she knows he hates crying in front of other people :( But she is tired of heart games so just, mm, emotionally drained from them, and she believes Kit will be okay as long as they repeatedly punch him in the feelings '-'b
i don't even know if this answers your question but i think i hit everything REVERSEDMANIT I CAN'T REVERSE THAT THIS QUESTION IS SILLY. Maybe you should tell me how Kit's dealing with it even though he's only been in like one post since his heart game