Jill thinks Haruki is the most dependable person she knows besides Edmund '^' but she can tell he still babies her, and it makes her crazy. She wants to protect him, too, and it's very important to her that he knows she can handle herself. Jill doesn't really... have... skills... beyond being brave and being willing to take risks, all her useful experience is with like. WILDERNESS TRAVEL and BATTLE and SCOUTING and so she's actually much more confident in her ability to help that way than any other, even though she doesn't particularly enjoy those things. So she feels like she can't offer support to Haruki in the ways she knows she's competent because he doesn't like it.

But also his opinion matters more to her and his reassurance means more to her than pretty much anyone else's so. It's like this ridiculous seesaw of craving approval and thinking he's a jerk whose approval she doesn't need because he doesn't understand!! And she's terrified he'll leave -- Amethyst is only remotely home because he's there.

TELL ME ABOUT APPLE VS NEW TEAMMATES.